Monday, November 14, 2011

Facing the Truth

About year ago, I weighed 189 lbs. I had lost 61 lbs from my original 250-lb frame. I was happier, had more energy, and was more confident in myself.

Lately, my clothes haven't been fitting as well. I'm more lethargic. I'm self-conscious rather than confident. I knew I had been on a plateau for about a year. I knew I had gained back some weight. I guess I was in denial about just how much weight I had gained. When I finally decided to do the math today, I figured out I've gained back 29 lbs since I started my weight loss journey. I'm tipping the scale at 218 lbs. No, I'm not back to square 1, but I have gained back almost HALF of the weight I had lost. No wonder I've been miserable. Frankly, I'm disgusted with myself for letting a little "plateau" turn into a 29-lb gain over the course of a year.

I've recently been blessed with a job at a personal training studio. I'm giving my time to helping the office side of things, and as an employee, I have access to unlimited classes. I've been trying out the TRX and Zumba classes a few times a week. I absolutely LOVE it. I am so blessed to have access to as much free fitness activity as I can stand. I can't do all the work by fitness alone.

I know that weight loss is about 30% fitness and 70% diet. So now, I've got to get my eating habits back in control. I'm not able to afford Weight Watchers any more, so I'm currently scoping out my options for what other affordable programs that are available. In the meantime, I'm trying to make good choices and eat smaller portions. I've set a lofty goal of losing 20-25 lbs by Christmas. I will post about my plan of action when I've gotten everything settled.